pain

i dunno what is pain until now!i dunno how to handle my pain!i can only say i'm in pain!it feels like i cant breathe!literally!my heart is beating so fast yet there is like no air inside of me!I'M IN PAIN!i try to keep myself very busy!believing knowing more ppl talk alot and i would forget every pain u put me trough!but i dun think i can!I'M IN PAIN!do u know painful is it inside?do u know how do u make me feel?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!u duno!!!!i'm still in pain!ur surprises is not helping at all!!i dunno la!!!!!!!!!!i am trying very hard!very hard to be happy!SO CAN U HELP ME TO BE HAPPY BECAUSE I DUNNO WHAT IS LIKE TO BE HAPPY?!ok la i wan go smoke