first love?

seriously wat is love?i dunno?i'm young!u tell me!but like all typical first love is ur childhood/teenage crush!he would either be the boy sitting next to u or the gal u alwiz play masak masak with!either which 1 is it!i'm gonna tell something about this love thingy......

like any normal kid human being u would see this person on a daily basis!at first u won't notice him!but........
damn tat cupid!muz he strike me?so u feel for him/her!everything about the person is wonderful!even if he/she fall,is the cutest thing u ever see!she/he is wonderful!u worship the person in ur heart everyday!he/she makes ur heart beat so fast that everytime he talk to you,you would melt on the spot!
then when u guys get closer......oh!u gave all ur heart and soul and everything to this person!but u keep it a secret!so that no one will know you like him/her!to avoid rejection!to avoid getting hurt!all u want was juz to be his/her friend to be close to with him/her

then u realise there is other gals/guy in his/her life!argh!hate whoever is that!so u cry at night!telling ur frenz blah blah what happen and stuff like that!then ur fren encourage you to confess to him/her.....u took such a long time to have the guts to do so!and when u finally did......he turn into deaf ears!is like he dun even know u like him!

too ashame to face ur close as they are not helping u much then ta-da come out of no where there is this guy/gal that you nvr notice and he/she notice u!best of all u guys click and he/she was there in ur darkest moment!support u all they way!nvr fail to cheer u up!oh how wonderful there finally someone to understand you!can ease ur burden!help you to throw away all the sadness!and of coz you guys fall in love........ah...........love at that moment!wonderful!

holding hands!walking around!having fun!

you guys were so much in love everything in the world is bliss!ntg else matters!

you guys were the sweetest couples!

u need each other everyday!sticking to each other!

kissing each other every chance u get!how wonderful!ntg can go wrong!ur love is wonderful!what will go wrong?!

then it was the time to test ur relationship!u argued!big fight!u nvr thought this would come!u fight over a (fill in urself) it seem such a small matter!but why?why argue over such thing?u cannot understand!

you cry thinking of it!you coz u miss him/her so much!

you stay up whole night thinking bout the arguement over and over again!waiting for his/her call!wishing every sms or phone call was him/her!u cant sleep!u cant bare the pain of ur first arguement in a relationship!and it hurts u so badly!

u cannot possible to go on life without he/she!u muz have her/him in life!u feel empty!so u talk to ur friends!waited awhile till everything cool down!chill!after few long(when u're sad time pass by very slow) nights and days alone,sad feeling down.....you made the first move to talk to him!both of u realise how much u need each other!

so yeah!u guys get back together!trying to catch up wat happen!even if the wound heal!the feeling of being each other changed!ntg seem real! is like you guys have ntg to say anymore!he/she hardly called!u hardly see him/her!even if u guys talked there seem ntg in common!

and slowly slowly the silent became poison!too much anger and jealousy and hate is pailed inside the heart!too much frus towards each other!

each conversation turn into ugly arguement!ntg seem right!everything that you do never seem to please him/her!he/she always seem bad mood around u!but when he/her with his/her friends they seem so happy!and then u guys argue again!it seem so painful to be together!

every word that is said to each other seem to razor sharp that it cuts the heart and leave wound into it!till you two could not take it anymore!

he/her is ur first bf/gf!how could it end so ugly?how could this love be ntg to you?how could u pretend ntg happen?when i'm hurting here so deeply?

finally is time to put a stop to all this pain!u guys break up!he/she moved on!so should u!but y are u keep holding to the pain the heart break and everything bad in this relationship?y is it so hard to move on?y is it so easy for others to tell me "aiyah u'll another better one la!got so many other ppl out there in the world" y is it look so easy for them?y is it so hard for me!and that would be playing in ur mind over and over and over again!

u feel like dying!leaving the world!U had enough of love!u hate everything bout urself!u question urself!am i not good enough for him/her?u long for him/her everyday!missing them holding on to those wound that never healed.....

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sound so emo right?so u tell me what is first love?is it the most painful one?the worst one?the one give u trauma or ur sweetest love?ntg beats first love?true love?well i can tell u this BULLSHIT!i nvr trusted true love ever in my love!ask me why?coz love is a big comclusion of sadness!so y alwiz think of the sad part!i memang thick face but sorry i dun mind rejection i go even i know if the person will never love me in return!so what!i had what i want and i'm happy that i tried!if i liked someone i will deny him coz if i do i would die!so y get so emo over love?yes i might sound abit angry coz everyday online sure got 1 or 2 idiot will tell me how sad are they!y they broke up with so on and so fort!GET A LIFE AND MOVE ON LA U IDIOT!it's juz a guy/gal!there are many children is in stalvation!many trees are dying!so help them instead asking for self-pity!help others and u would be more happy!thank you for reading and for those who is in a relationship-good luck with each other and those looking for love-keep on looking coz the right one will come eventually!so enjoy love if it end keep the happy 1 with u and juz erase those sad stuff away!that would make my life,ur life and other ppl's life better!thank you!