Intoxicated

Have you ever felt addicted to a feeling. The feeling someone gives you that you can't shake it off. Not even any substance can replace this addiction. This high I can't get enough of. You know it's bad, you know you can't have it yet you want to define every means of impossible and own it. You at the end of the day it's gonna hurt you bad but the high at very moment it's worth it. You just gotta have it. Why are humans designed to be this way? Is this what people describe as living it? Why do we put our mental and emotions into test like this?

He was the perfect bad boy. The kind of bad boy I want. The kind of bad boy that I dream of. Dangerous and dreamy. The kind of bad boy that leaves your body and mind into a trance. When you're with him, you feel you can take the world without fear. And you know he's bad for you but you want. The high you get when you're with him. The adrenaline rush is too much to handle. It is addictive. You never want the high to end. And when it does, you feel your world has shattered into pieces. Reality comes knocking on the door asking you to wake up and pick back the pieces but you don't. It's like a designer drugs, keeps you motivated. Drives you that everything you do is for the high. You stay in the trance of wanting more.

Your mind now is on a mad man mode. You know you can't have him. He's a bad boy. He will hurt and he will never love you the way you want him to but you make excuses for yourself. You tell yourself maybe he will. You comfort your precious heart telling yourself "He likes me. If he doesn't why would he even want to spend time with me?" but deep down you know you're lying. Deep within your heart you know the answer, without you there are plenty other women for him. You are definitely not the only one. Now you are truly mad. All these voices playing in your head.

Love is one true drug. It gets you so high and when it comes down it drives a single person mad.