fly away

The Public - a thing I cannot help looking upon as an enemy, and which I cannot address without feelings of hostility. John Keats

supposingly to do my assignment but i am sorry i just cant!i dunno what's bothering me!assignments keep on pouring down and i am like an overfilled bucket unable to contain all this "rain".gosh!what am i rambling?i have no effin idea is just that mentally i am tired or more to fear?there is a fear in me which i am unsure how am i suppose to channel it out.maybe the surrounding me is not peaceful enough?i dunno la.....if only life were a bed of roses.hahahaha or maybe chocolate?i would prefer chocolate thank you.!hahahahahaha can u believe second sem is coming to an end i am still here oblivious to anything like i dont care!like i meant to be this way!i am so ignorant towards my education which will eventually be the key to my future yet i am not bothered!i dunno why but this is kinda stressful coz i never felt this way before whereby i doubt myself so greatly.is it or the ppl around is just being overly judgemental?i wont deny i judge others but i nvr take my verdict and talk about it or is it my head is playing games me?or i am just paranoid?ok i also dunno what am i typing d!hahahahaha

The pieces of my puzzle,

Are a big jumbled mess,

Lots are missing,

And some are so broken they can't be fixed.

Sometimes I get real close,

It almost looks perfect,

But then it falls apart,

And I become so discouraged.

I try to glue it back together,

But nothing seems to fit,

Obsession takes over, then exhaustion weighs in,

So I quit.

Frustration flows through my veins,

I just have no clue,I sit back and wait for a sign,

I don't know what else to do.