Sieweez❤

i haf a problem and i admit it!!when facing problems i run away!when i run away the feeling of guilt is in it and i feel confuse and i dunno what to do so what do i do?i smoke!yupe that's right!i smoke!i'm not a chain smoker or anything la!!i juz smoke coz after smoking u'll feel it is easier to sleep lorr.....instead staying up all night staring at the wall and cry and stuff lik tat!so i choose smoking!I dunno how it started and stuff lik tat but i really haf the urge to smoke everytime i'm upset but everyone in my family hate smokers so i juz ignore it but nowdays i've been having weird dreams of smoking.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm after all what i ahve done this pass few days juz leaving the hostel was wrong!!!i juz cant help thinking that i've made shit for my parents again!i know ppl say shit happen but i cant help thinking how can i do better next time and it sucks la the feeling!!the more i wana smoke but i wanna stop!I duwan become chain smoker!i wanna stop smoking!!aihz.......................